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11 May 2007 @ 11:33 pm

Bummer, haven't really felt this in a while. Got home from work a little while ago and I just finished checking out my friends LJ's. Unfortunately during the drive home, I got a feeling of despair and, while trying my best to shake it, I just couldn't get rid of the feeling of being (I REALLY hate to say it) depression. Yes, I have had episodes like this before, but it's usually only for a short moment. Kinda just feel like curling up in bed, and escaping. I do feel kinda tired. I don't mean physically, but emotionally. Now that I think of it, I really miss vacations and going on trips with my parents. Just escaping from my normal things I do, and just having a good time with my parents. It's possible that I'm now beginning to realize how the "real world" works and that I'm realizing that it's going to be a good struggle for me. Also, it's beginning to sound logical that I'm just tired of having to constantly act in a certain with certain people. Just to let those who live with me, no you all aren't included in that group.

Anyways, I'm kinda babbling right now at the moment, and this really isn't doing much at the moment. Keep pausing and getting either distracted my music or I get enveloped in thought. Although, I'm glad to have Jess with me to help me through this. She's helped me out in more ways than I had hoped for.

Take it easy everyone.
What I'm Listening To: Ayumi Hamasaki - No Way To Say
Austin Coté Williamssporks5000 on May 12th, 2007 10:30 am (UTC)
I've been going through that all week. It's been really weird.

I'm perfectly used to mood swings where I go in seconds from being very happy to depressed, but this week, it's as if I'm a pendulum and the clock is tilted on an angle. Rather than swings of happy and sad, I've been going from complacency and indifference to complete despair. I'm not sure if it's something that I can handle much longer...

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. I wish you the best of luck in getting through this.